Holiday stress...

Seems like the holidays bring out the best and worst in me simultaneously. Sounds crazy, but that's how I feel. As wonderful as the Christmas season is, and the joy it represents in my life, I find myself distracted, jumpy, and even cranky. I'm not sure why, but I don't like it.

I had a hard time focusing this week - mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Gifts, family functions, and even food (of all things) seemed to entice me away from anything of any true depth or meaning during this season. And maybe that's what is truly upsetting me - I got caught up in the fluff of Christmas without embracing the real meaning. In doing so, I feel like I missed out...I guess I did.

Thankfully, God is as merciful and gracious today as He was when He gave us the best Christmas gift of all, His Son. And my faith in Him offers me the great privilege to enter His presence even when feeling empty, fruitless, or frustrated. He comforts, cares for, and challenges me to a deeper understanding and a stronger faith. Sometimes I agree and submit, other times my stubborn pride prevails and I suffer the consequences. To be painfully honest, it was my pride that led me away from the depth of experience I truly desired this Christmas season - at least for a time.

However, I'm looking forward to this next week. Not because Christmas is over and the hustle and bustle has slowed, but because I choose to exercise my faith in submission to God's sovereignty and enjoy the peace of His presence. It's nice to know the Peace of the world...and then to embrace Him.

Finding peace,

jonathan